"Therefore will the Lord wait, that He may be gracious unto you, and therefore will He be exalted, that He may have mercy upon you; for the Lord is a God of judgment; blessed are all they that wait for Him."-- Isa 30:18.
How many times have we heard, it's the timing of the Lord not our timing that blessings fall upon us. Yet, it's true, we take the good with the bad. Tribulations never happen on our timing, unfortunately.
But is it unfortunate? In hindsight, I can think of countless moments of despair where I have had to call upon the Lord for his ease of my suffering. It is because I have called upon him that I am where I am today. What a tremendously great gift to have - the faith to know we will prevail with his Grace. I'm so blessed. I sit and ponder the very spot I'm in. A peaceful, happy spot despite everything not being perfect; or even how I might have it. But its the spot that was made for me.
These last few months, I have had to redefine my place again. In a different world, in a different circumstance, with different people. I will admit. It has not been an easy challenge. None the less, it was a challenge I asked for. I have asked the Lord so many times to have our family reunite and be one again. Almost since 2006 when I made the decision to divorce. It just never felt right to be apart, but we learn to cope and move forward. As I look back at the many lessons that have occurred in my life and the obstacles that I have had to overcome it was the very path that lead me back to this very spot. How neat is that?!?
So, as the summer comes to a close. I have been able to spend quality time with Dawson while continuing my own business from home, re-ignite a relationship with my ex-husband whom is the love of my life, and learn to share a kitchen with a mother-in-law who would do anything in the world for me and her grandson.
The Lord does have his own timing. I will continue to pursue my education in the art of patience, however, without perfecting it. Because I need the Lord and if life were perfect and not broken I would not call upon Him as often as I do. I like broken. It gives purpose.
Monday, August 22, 2011
Saturday, June 4, 2011
2278.7
The number of miles from Idaho Falls to Clarence. We made it. We have been here a week and although our trip was fairly uneventful a car ride gives you some great moments to think. Here I am on this new adventure. Son in tow - who is estatic to be part of his father and brother's life again on a daily basis. Me, hesitant, but committed to this chosen path. I truly believe this is where the Lord wants me. I'm not really sure why yet. He wants me here for some reason - which I will work my darndest to try and figure out. What a wasted opportunity if you go through the pain, agony and and effort to move yourself to be in the Lord's work and then drop the ball just before the reward of listening to him. I'm determined to figure it all out - even if it takes months or years. Rewards with the Lord are definitely worth every ounce of effort. It's the test of patience that is the most difficult. I love my life. I love the new challenges coming my way and I love the Lord that he takes such great care of me and our family.
What's next? My inner GPS is currently saying "recalculating". Time to reposition my route and see where God takes me now. Buckle up!
What's next? My inner GPS is currently saying "recalculating". Time to reposition my route and see where God takes me now. Buckle up!
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Stand still.
The things that evoke the deeper meaning of my life seem to come on Sunday's when things have quieted, the day is at a managable pace and greatest of all - hearing the word of God speak directly to me. I reflected today on our lesson of reading Matthew 20:29-34. Jesus healing of the 2 blind men. What a magnificent testimony that the Lord lives.
I will never ever forget the moment when I felt like those desperate blind men seeking the mercy of God. The outloud cries and pleas for Jesus to step in and heal a broken heart. And he does just that. He continually asks us what we need. Confess it from your mouth in a voice of unwaivering desperation. He will stop and hear hear you. I am indebted to Him for stepping in and answering my prayers.
I have continued my Love Dare readings. I love this book! Not only to guide me through the Lord and his word to be a partner in a marriage, but also in being a Godly woman as an individual. Each day has context to the person I want to be and portray.
The "dare" for the week was to show patience by saying nothing negative to your spouse. In my case, Dave. It is better to hold your tongue that to say something you'll regret. Normally, I would think of this during a fight or argument, but had to step back. Poor Dave. I am ALWAYS stepping forth with my opinion and unsolicited advice. He has taken my 2 cents with appreciation and grace. I'm a woman who always has something to say! I bit my tongue since reading these passages and have been selective about the things I've offered up. It was a challenge. Sometimes you want to defend yourself. Other times offer a different perspective. And lastly, sometimes I feel I need to contribute something and that is relating it to a personal experience and feeling which turns into "my way of doing things".
None the less, I have found that I will struggle with this. It has made me focus on listening and decidely not having a response is okay. Ultimately, to be like Christ - just stop and listen. Leaving the rest to the Master healer.
I will never ever forget the moment when I felt like those desperate blind men seeking the mercy of God. The outloud cries and pleas for Jesus to step in and heal a broken heart. And he does just that. He continually asks us what we need. Confess it from your mouth in a voice of unwaivering desperation. He will stop and hear hear you. I am indebted to Him for stepping in and answering my prayers.
I have continued my Love Dare readings. I love this book! Not only to guide me through the Lord and his word to be a partner in a marriage, but also in being a Godly woman as an individual. Each day has context to the person I want to be and portray.
The "dare" for the week was to show patience by saying nothing negative to your spouse. In my case, Dave. It is better to hold your tongue that to say something you'll regret. Normally, I would think of this during a fight or argument, but had to step back. Poor Dave. I am ALWAYS stepping forth with my opinion and unsolicited advice. He has taken my 2 cents with appreciation and grace. I'm a woman who always has something to say! I bit my tongue since reading these passages and have been selective about the things I've offered up. It was a challenge. Sometimes you want to defend yourself. Other times offer a different perspective. And lastly, sometimes I feel I need to contribute something and that is relating it to a personal experience and feeling which turns into "my way of doing things".
None the less, I have found that I will struggle with this. It has made me focus on listening and decidely not having a response is okay. Ultimately, to be like Christ - just stop and listen. Leaving the rest to the Master healer.
Sunday, March 13, 2011
With every changing day.....
It has been a month since I've written. I have had a dramatic change in roles at work, Dawson's 6th Birthday, A week in Texas visiting my sister Jody and her sweet family and finally home to have Dawson's actual birthday party. Eventful month.
With every event there seemed to be a vivid change that occured. Work reminded me of my great desire to be a business owner. Over the past year I diligently worked to build a clientele that I've very much enjoyed working with. When you accept certain responsibilities, with that often times comes removal of my own agenda and taking on the agenda of a group or other individual. I had to surrender to putting my agenda to the side and I have to admit, it didn't feel good. I realized for the first time that I was successful at something I've been fearful of pursing 100% on my own. An enlightening a'ha moment that I definitely will explore.
On an at home note, Dawson turned 6 years old. My precious boy is growing up. With his growing smarts, comes smart alecness. Definitely personality traits begin to really shine through. I have my hands full, but continue to look forward to watching him grow, learn and develop.
We had our trip to Texas. Jody and Brent treated Dawson and I to travel down to Houston where we were able to see all the kids - the newest member, baby Taylor. We LOVED our time there and had a wonderful visit.
When we returned, we had Dawson's birthday party with his friends. We sported a bowling event at PineCrest Bowling and had a great great time. They were wonderful hosts!! Dawson enjoyed his party. Another successful year checked off.
Through the month, everyday that past, I felt so entirely blessed. I'm so lucky to have the things I have, a son that I love with such a deep love, work that I look forward to doing, and a life rich full of special blessings. Dave and I have been able to talk through more and more of our relationship and begin to formulate the steps we need to move in a positive direction.
I was taken by a song I heard recently called Blessings, by Laura Story. it goes:
We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things
(Chorus)
'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if the thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
As long as we have faith to believe
Chorus
When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
Chorus
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise
It reminded me that the Lord has a plan and unless we are listening and paying attention to every detail, it will take more tears, more sleepless nights, more trials to follow his plan. We have to seek him always. And when we seek him, he talks to us.
Love my life, love the people in it. So greatful for every blessing I have.
~Sandy
With every event there seemed to be a vivid change that occured. Work reminded me of my great desire to be a business owner. Over the past year I diligently worked to build a clientele that I've very much enjoyed working with. When you accept certain responsibilities, with that often times comes removal of my own agenda and taking on the agenda of a group or other individual. I had to surrender to putting my agenda to the side and I have to admit, it didn't feel good. I realized for the first time that I was successful at something I've been fearful of pursing 100% on my own. An enlightening a'ha moment that I definitely will explore.
On an at home note, Dawson turned 6 years old. My precious boy is growing up. With his growing smarts, comes smart alecness. Definitely personality traits begin to really shine through. I have my hands full, but continue to look forward to watching him grow, learn and develop.
We had our trip to Texas. Jody and Brent treated Dawson and I to travel down to Houston where we were able to see all the kids - the newest member, baby Taylor. We LOVED our time there and had a wonderful visit.
When we returned, we had Dawson's birthday party with his friends. We sported a bowling event at PineCrest Bowling and had a great great time. They were wonderful hosts!! Dawson enjoyed his party. Another successful year checked off.
Through the month, everyday that past, I felt so entirely blessed. I'm so lucky to have the things I have, a son that I love with such a deep love, work that I look forward to doing, and a life rich full of special blessings. Dave and I have been able to talk through more and more of our relationship and begin to formulate the steps we need to move in a positive direction.
I was taken by a song I heard recently called Blessings, by Laura Story. it goes:
We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things
(Chorus)
'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if the thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
As long as we have faith to believe
Chorus
When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home
Chorus
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise
It reminded me that the Lord has a plan and unless we are listening and paying attention to every detail, it will take more tears, more sleepless nights, more trials to follow his plan. We have to seek him always. And when we seek him, he talks to us.
Love my life, love the people in it. So greatful for every blessing I have.
~Sandy
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Do you ever look at someone with your mouth wide open in awe and think, They are so brilliant! Everything they speak - is said with sincerity, perfect tone, a message that is understood. They can point you in the right direction - because they just know. Yet, they can stand in such humility and tell you story after story of how they screwed their life up over and over, just like me.
It's no secret that I have my struggles - just like anyone else. I may be more vocal about mine because I treasure the thoughts, advice and expertise of others that seem to guide my little world - I get to control the outcome through my faith in God, but the perspective is priceless. Combined, sometimes I've succeeded, sometimes I've failed - but I've made it through over and over.
Church has been simply awesome the past few weeks. Ironically going through my Dare book and then reading the messages from The Book of Matthew have been very enlightening. I have so much enjoyed getting to know THE word. Over the past couple of weeks, the message has been about forgiveness. Today, Divorce. Next week on being single. I can't help but feel intense messages coming my way. Did you know Divorce was rampant in Jesus's day? I do wonder if they went through the turmoil we do today when Divorce happens. I will never go through that again. It's simply not an option unless a life is at stake.
I did realize today though, this, that the relationship cycle I am in is common. I'm divorced because I felt there was someone out there that would understand me better. Have a greater desire to meet my needs. Love me more. Have more of the same interests as me. Appreciate who I was and embrace my free spirit. Someone who thought I was the world. So, there comes a time when you just try to move on. Find THAT someone. The unfortunate thing is, he's not out there. I made a committment to a marriage and I didn't make it work. Learning from that experience over the years of my divorce, I find myself searching for that relationship to make work. A man who loves the Lord as much as I do. Besides the normal things you find a mate to enjoy life with, I've discovered my greatest need is a strong believer. I want to be the best mate I can be. I want him to want to be the best in the Lord's walk he can be. I think a truly great marriage depends on that. I love that saying, when you seek Him, you will find me.
So... that brings us to my week of The Dare. Week 2. The points that had the greatest persepctive to me:
Day 8 - Love is best when God is first! How ironic that Matthew 22:37 was quoted. You Shall love the Lord your God with all your heart.
Day 9 - As you abide in Christ's love, the love you have for your spouse will increase in the overflow.
Day 10 - Ultimately, how you love and respect your mate reveals every day the sincerity of your love and respect for God.
Day 11 - Walking with God is better than a thousand marriage books or counseling sessions.
Day 12 - Loneliness should be absent. Love builds bridges between lonely hearts to make you close companions for life.
Day 13 - Love brings completeness.
Day 14 - Love extends help. God intended for you to assist your spouse as a primary purpose in your marriage. It even meets a need in you to know that you are needed.
On to another week! :) Happy Valentine's Day to those who inspire me!
It's no secret that I have my struggles - just like anyone else. I may be more vocal about mine because I treasure the thoughts, advice and expertise of others that seem to guide my little world - I get to control the outcome through my faith in God, but the perspective is priceless. Combined, sometimes I've succeeded, sometimes I've failed - but I've made it through over and over.
Church has been simply awesome the past few weeks. Ironically going through my Dare book and then reading the messages from The Book of Matthew have been very enlightening. I have so much enjoyed getting to know THE word. Over the past couple of weeks, the message has been about forgiveness. Today, Divorce. Next week on being single. I can't help but feel intense messages coming my way. Did you know Divorce was rampant in Jesus's day? I do wonder if they went through the turmoil we do today when Divorce happens. I will never go through that again. It's simply not an option unless a life is at stake.
I did realize today though, this, that the relationship cycle I am in is common. I'm divorced because I felt there was someone out there that would understand me better. Have a greater desire to meet my needs. Love me more. Have more of the same interests as me. Appreciate who I was and embrace my free spirit. Someone who thought I was the world. So, there comes a time when you just try to move on. Find THAT someone. The unfortunate thing is, he's not out there. I made a committment to a marriage and I didn't make it work. Learning from that experience over the years of my divorce, I find myself searching for that relationship to make work. A man who loves the Lord as much as I do. Besides the normal things you find a mate to enjoy life with, I've discovered my greatest need is a strong believer. I want to be the best mate I can be. I want him to want to be the best in the Lord's walk he can be. I think a truly great marriage depends on that. I love that saying, when you seek Him, you will find me.
So... that brings us to my week of The Dare. Week 2. The points that had the greatest persepctive to me:
Day 8 - Love is best when God is first! How ironic that Matthew 22:37 was quoted. You Shall love the Lord your God with all your heart.
Day 9 - As you abide in Christ's love, the love you have for your spouse will increase in the overflow.
Day 10 - Ultimately, how you love and respect your mate reveals every day the sincerity of your love and respect for God.
Day 11 - Walking with God is better than a thousand marriage books or counseling sessions.
Day 12 - Loneliness should be absent. Love builds bridges between lonely hearts to make you close companions for life.
Day 13 - Love brings completeness.
Day 14 - Love extends help. God intended for you to assist your spouse as a primary purpose in your marriage. It even meets a need in you to know that you are needed.
On to another week! :) Happy Valentine's Day to those who inspire me!
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Obstacles
Well, I feel like a complete loser! Not really, but sad and disappointed. Although this is not the first obstacle I've hit in ANY relationship I've had or this one for that matter, this is an obstacle that is out of my realm. Dave has not spoken to me for a week and our last conversation was his struggles to forgive me for abandoning him when I left our marriage. I don't know what it feels like to be abandoned. I have been dumped in relationships - many times! But abandonment was not what I felt. The Lord has always carried me through and I've always had a good support network of friends and family. I do not know what he's going through - but for now, released from the pressures of being a mate is one of them. With me anyway. We have a lot of baggage. I've made a lot of mistakes. I've been forgiven by our gracious God over and over again. More times than I really care to recount. It is not in my list of available options not to forgive those who have sinned against me. Who am I to cast grudery, resentment and hatred when I myself have been washed of my sins over again. I'm so sorry he's going through all of this. I'm sorry that it feels as though I mimized my transgressions because I'm able to forgive and move past the slavery that those hurts can hold over you when you can't fully give them to the Lord. I asked him to forgive me more than once. Matthew 18:15-35 reminds us that when Peter tried to negotiate with the Lord for the number of times you can forgive a sinner - he thought 7. Jesus corrected him saying.... as many times as it takes. I do not exect our relationship to return to it's original package. Sometimes, you wish it could - at the point in time when things were best. But in a relationship committment, I do exect him to take time and energy to get to know me, not be my record keeper of wrongs.
The future holds a great deal of optimism, love and a Godly man for me. It also holds more sin, heartache and trials. Who knows what will happen. I will always work towards having my family repaired and a reconciliation is ALWAYS an option. For now, it's me, growing, working with the Lord on my walk in life and living for HIM.
~Sandy
The future holds a great deal of optimism, love and a Godly man for me. It also holds more sin, heartache and trials. Who knows what will happen. I will always work towards having my family repaired and a reconciliation is ALWAYS an option. For now, it's me, growing, working with the Lord on my walk in life and living for HIM.
~Sandy
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Week 1 - Being rooted and grounded in Love (Ephesians 3:17)
Nothing comes easily! I'm a hard worker and enjoy a challenge, but sheeezzz. I may be asking for too much when I started this committment. Especially for a year! The summary of my first week is if I can answer the question, do I know what love is? I prayerfully studied various scriptures this week seeking the books suggestion "Lord, teach me what real love is and make me a loving person."
What I came away with is - it's all perspective. I believe myself to be a loving person. Even before reading. But I have offended. I thought I knew what love was, but I have broken the hearts of others. So, in my search to understand what love is and ask for His hand to make me a loving person, I realized this will always be a work in progress.
Sometimes, I don't feel like being a loving person, but must continue to love. I know how to love, but can I love my enemies and those who have transgressed against me?
The greatest love I have known is from the sacrifice of Jesus - for me. On an earthly level, my mother who loved me unconditionally, without fail, in all things.
I reflected on those two loves that I know, without any doubt. That of Jesus and of my mother. The common denominator and that in which the Lord teaches us is to be unselfish. True love comes when we can remove personal agenda and be genuine in our efforts for another.
What a difficult thing to do in this world of survival. Especially as a single person with no earthly accountability - it's do or die in most cases. To be single and in a relationship is challenging. When you are married there is almost a sense of obligation to your spouse. A must compromise. When single, that is erased. I find it very difficult to enter into a relationship with so many issues and challenges from the get go. I yearn to be selfless. Doesn't it feel important to have a mate who feels the same? Are the boundaries lost when you are not married and trying to be a selfless partner? Giving your all when walls are up and you stand rejected? Is it unfair to expect to be loved in return when there is only one person on the battleground.
As we work our way through "this relationship" it's going to take sacrifice beyond measure. I'm human and I question intent - especially when I'm shut out of the process. He is not me and I not him. Our perspectives and expectation vary alot. He lacks vision to my perspective and I lack vision to his. Can perspective be learned and accepted, or even compromised?
So, tell me this. Love is being selfless. Why does trying to create the loving environment for my spouse to grow in feel selfish? Is it more important to find a mate who has little disagreance with my idea of "loving environment" or more important to find the person and create the environment that they feel loved in?
The phrases that I felt connected to as I read the first 7 days are:
Day 1 - Loving God and others is what life is really about. Absence of love leaves a devastating void. Even when you are together.
Day 2 - For Christ's love compels us (2 Corinthians 5:14) When love invades your heart, you are empowered to endure deeper pain, willingly pay a greater cost and run risks to your repuation for the sake of another.
Day 3 -When marriages crumble, couples often claim that it was due to their irreconcilable differences. But genuine love is a master at reconciliation.
Day 4 - Love ultimately fulfills every law of God. Rather than trying to manufacture right actions and attitudes, let love become your first response and your default position.
Day 5 - Jesus was the most loving man ever to walk the earth and remains the perfect example of manhood.
Day 6 - Love, is your primary responsibility in marrigage. No one on Earth is more strategically positioned, commanded, and called on to love your mate than you are.
Day 7 - When you provide safe, loving soil for your spouse to grow in, they will be more likely to flourish with confidence, knowing they are valued and secure.
The challenge continues. I will continue to pray to be that loving person in all ways and be open to the Lord's ways of teaching me what real love is. I did not expect it to be easy. It takes 2. Me and the Lord.
What I came away with is - it's all perspective. I believe myself to be a loving person. Even before reading. But I have offended. I thought I knew what love was, but I have broken the hearts of others. So, in my search to understand what love is and ask for His hand to make me a loving person, I realized this will always be a work in progress.
Sometimes, I don't feel like being a loving person, but must continue to love. I know how to love, but can I love my enemies and those who have transgressed against me?
The greatest love I have known is from the sacrifice of Jesus - for me. On an earthly level, my mother who loved me unconditionally, without fail, in all things.
I reflected on those two loves that I know, without any doubt. That of Jesus and of my mother. The common denominator and that in which the Lord teaches us is to be unselfish. True love comes when we can remove personal agenda and be genuine in our efforts for another.
What a difficult thing to do in this world of survival. Especially as a single person with no earthly accountability - it's do or die in most cases. To be single and in a relationship is challenging. When you are married there is almost a sense of obligation to your spouse. A must compromise. When single, that is erased. I find it very difficult to enter into a relationship with so many issues and challenges from the get go. I yearn to be selfless. Doesn't it feel important to have a mate who feels the same? Are the boundaries lost when you are not married and trying to be a selfless partner? Giving your all when walls are up and you stand rejected? Is it unfair to expect to be loved in return when there is only one person on the battleground.
As we work our way through "this relationship" it's going to take sacrifice beyond measure. I'm human and I question intent - especially when I'm shut out of the process. He is not me and I not him. Our perspectives and expectation vary alot. He lacks vision to my perspective and I lack vision to his. Can perspective be learned and accepted, or even compromised?
So, tell me this. Love is being selfless. Why does trying to create the loving environment for my spouse to grow in feel selfish? Is it more important to find a mate who has little disagreance with my idea of "loving environment" or more important to find the person and create the environment that they feel loved in?
The phrases that I felt connected to as I read the first 7 days are:
Day 1 - Loving God and others is what life is really about. Absence of love leaves a devastating void. Even when you are together.
Day 2 - For Christ's love compels us (2 Corinthians 5:14) When love invades your heart, you are empowered to endure deeper pain, willingly pay a greater cost and run risks to your repuation for the sake of another.
Day 3 -When marriages crumble, couples often claim that it was due to their irreconcilable differences. But genuine love is a master at reconciliation.
Day 4 - Love ultimately fulfills every law of God. Rather than trying to manufacture right actions and attitudes, let love become your first response and your default position.
Day 5 - Jesus was the most loving man ever to walk the earth and remains the perfect example of manhood.
Day 6 - Love, is your primary responsibility in marrigage. No one on Earth is more strategically positioned, commanded, and called on to love your mate than you are.
Day 7 - When you provide safe, loving soil for your spouse to grow in, they will be more likely to flourish with confidence, knowing they are valued and secure.
The challenge continues. I will continue to pray to be that loving person in all ways and be open to the Lord's ways of teaching me what real love is. I did not expect it to be easy. It takes 2. Me and the Lord.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
A New Year! New Adventures! A New Challenge!
I purchased a new book this week. The Love Dare for Couples.
After the holidays and reflecting on my life (past, present and future) - I realized my greatest goal is to be the best for my family. That's where I experience my greatest happiness. A compliment on Dawson that reflects on my teachings. A comfortableness from Isaac that speaks how much he enjoys having us around. A smile from Dave that says "I'm so glad you are here!" Those simple things are what brings me joy.
I want to be such a great mate, mother, partner, friend. I want to be that Godly woman who walks with a glow that invites a specialness just to be around. I want to emit the piece of me that shows an unconditional love. No expectation of anything in return.
So... in search to be that person I love being, I'm starting with Dave. One of my greatest priorities to be the best I can to him. There are a ton of ways to accomplish that, but for now, I'm starting with The Love Dare for Couples - A Year of Devotionals.
This is for me. Heres to this new chapter, new year and a chance to look back 365 days from now having brought the inside of myself outward.
Stay tuned. Tomorrow is Day 1!
After the holidays and reflecting on my life (past, present and future) - I realized my greatest goal is to be the best for my family. That's where I experience my greatest happiness. A compliment on Dawson that reflects on my teachings. A comfortableness from Isaac that speaks how much he enjoys having us around. A smile from Dave that says "I'm so glad you are here!" Those simple things are what brings me joy.
I want to be such a great mate, mother, partner, friend. I want to be that Godly woman who walks with a glow that invites a specialness just to be around. I want to emit the piece of me that shows an unconditional love. No expectation of anything in return.
So... in search to be that person I love being, I'm starting with Dave. One of my greatest priorities to be the best I can to him. There are a ton of ways to accomplish that, but for now, I'm starting with The Love Dare for Couples - A Year of Devotionals.
This is for me. Heres to this new chapter, new year and a chance to look back 365 days from now having brought the inside of myself outward.
Stay tuned. Tomorrow is Day 1!
Our last Christmas...
It was our last Christmas to ever be spent apart. Dawson and I had a wonderful visit in NY for our "holiday" celebration. Santa was good to both of us. I got the love of my life and Dawson got a wii. It appears everyone got what they wanted. Better than a wii, I got to relive the best times of my life for a week. Reminiscing about the times we laughed, bonded and shared. For a few days, just time to love and be loved. If I never got another week like Christmas, the gift of Christmas 2010 will always be one of my most cherrished.
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