"In a Relationship" - So the status says.....

I couldn't have asked for a better lead in to what I want to say than taking from Glen Beck's words today.... the leaves are changing. As I evolve and change as a woman, mother, sister, aunt, friend, co-worker; what is really changing is the relationship that I hold myself to the highest esteem - a Daughter of God.

When you make the decision to "get right with God" it involves some serious self-reflection. I have spent the past several months going through the process of who I am, what my purpose is and how does that lay upon my eternal map the Lord has for me. What I learned was amazing. I don't think I could even accurately reflect in writing the flood of knowledge that my heart, mind and soul has witnesses in the past weeks. Where it landed me - living Plan A!

God has a plan for all of us. From start to finish. There is no Plan B. Plan C. Plan D. There is only one plan for each of us - Plan A. I'm living it. I'm living what God has called of me. I sat in Pastor Rick's Bible Teaching last night and it were as though it were only he and I amongst an entire congregation of listeners. He spoke many things that resonated with me, but as he taught from the Book of Jude and explained the bondservant (Jude 1:1), consider me one. I am here to serve the Lord because I want to be. Because I have the opportunity to be in God's Love. It's an amazing transformation to accept Jesus into your heart and allow him to work miracles in, on and around you. What a blessing to be in this time.

So... yes, I am in a new relationship with my Lord Jesus. He is my Savior and the one that I can wholly submit myself to with complete trust. He gave his life for me - even if I were the only one standing on the earth, he would have still died for me alone. I can not leave the side of someone willing to do that for me. I am committed to my walk with Jesus.

Plan A. To walk the walk. The doors have opened. I'm under a spout that is pouring blessing upon blessing. God has perfectly put in front of me the people that need to be here. There will be more changes coming - don't be surprised. I'm thrilled and although I DO look forward to developing a relationship on this earth with a man who has the same devotion to God, it is not yet. It's an adventure. And you never know what's going to happen when God works miracles. But I'm listening!!

Love to you! ~Sandy

My Change of Heart

I think I've said this on several occassions during my "blogging" life, this will be no exception. Almost standing here in nakedness, fully vulnerable to the scrutiny of others - but this is my life and my eternal livelyhood depends on it. This change of heart I have experienced is valuable to me - it means my salvation. Tonight, I have opened my heart to Jesus. I have surrendered to him. I received him into my soul and feel so full of the spirit and his love it's overwhelming.

I have so much gratitude for the love and acceptance I have for this beautiful gift. A work in progress and today I can leave it with Jesus. God has choosen me and the feeling of approval despite any sin of mine has breathed new life into me. I finally feel free to be me. To be the woman that God created and do the things which he leads me to do. What a powerful thing to have - to serve God with such intense love. I've always had so much love in me to give. I've spent years and years controling who got a piece of that love only to find discontent. That love all bottled up and given in small doses is now overflowing.

I was losing the battle as a single mother controlling me, my son, our environment, what comes in, what goes out. Constantly manipulating my future, dwelling on a past of mistakes, living in envy of others. I do not do drugs. I do not drink. I don't swear (too often), but my addiction to self-pity, to manipulate others and control my life to feed my soul was destructive. There is no love is moving others away from their own salvation. God does not lead us to evil. I opened the door to my soul and gave my life to the man who shed the blood for me. Who paid the price for any sin I committed and will continue to committ. I am immperfect. I am a sinner. I relinquish myself to the Lord Jesus and prayerfully encircle him with such gratitude for his sacrifice for me. I now know what it feels like to be a child of God. To be choosen. To live in freedom.

May the blessings continue to pour upon those that I cross paths with. My life be the life that God granted me and the purpose he has for me. I open myself to listen with the purest of intentions to do good. I'm so happy.